Fasting for Ramadan as a non-Muslim – The Make Up Day

First things first: Fasting during daylight hours in November is WAY easier than fasting during daylight hours in August. My Muslim friends had intimated as much, but I was not expecting it to be as easy as it was today.

I almost wished that it was harder. When I took a day off from Ramadan to play in my college’s alumni soccer game, I knew that I would have to make up that day before the end of the year. Even though the season of Ramadan is an entire month, the rhythm of the fasting and the solidarity of a billion others fasting makes the struggle a bit easier.

Now that the rest Ramadan fast is a few months behind me, I look back on some of those struggles with real fondness. I really learned a lot about Muslim culture during that month (and a lot about myself as well). I sometimes wonder if it will remain one of the most meaningful experiences of my life.

While my fast was to intended for me learn more about what this Muslim experience is like, and to show some solidarity with my Muslim friends, I did not end up converting to Islam. I’m sure that some of my Muslim and non-Muslim friends thought that this was possible based on my interest in the religion, but alas, it did not happen.

After a life lived in the realm of Christianity, I found myself wanting to get outside of the box. It’s too bad that there isn’t a new phrase that has replaced “outside of the box”. Remember when that term was en vogue? Remember when “en vogue” was… en vogue? You do? Alright! Now we’ve achieved synergy!

Sorry for that digression, but I actually do appreciate that metaphor of a box. The container of my Christian faith gave me a great deal of comfort. In my particular sect of Christianity, we believed that God’s only inspired words were contained within the leather casing of the Bible. Right there, from Genesis to Revelation, that was it.

It wasn’t exactly a small box, but it was a clearly delineated record of inspiration. I through myself headlong into studying and memorizing it. I even went to college to get a degree in the Bible. It was a 774,746 word (give or take) field to be mastered. Heck, I even started to learn how to translate from the ancient Greek.

But when my horizons were expanded to the billions of people who have never known the Bible and it’s Jesus, I found that I could not accept my Church’s teachings of their role in God’s grand narrative.

What was I to do about the Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists, etc. of the world?

A God who would send the ignorant to hell didn’t appeal to me, and if He did allow some sort of grace to the ignorant, then evangelism seemed like a risky proposition, with the eternal destiny of souls on the line.

Perhaps you have heard of the metaphor of the blind men and the elephant?

These six blind men happen upon an elephant, but each can only perceive the creature through their hands. They take turns describing the different parts of the animal that they can feel, and argue over who is actually in touch with the its true nature. Of course, there is the artist, with eyes to behold the entire scene, and with this, the ultimate knowledge. Everyone thinks that they can perceive the whole of the God… er uh, elephant, right? How can one make such a claim and still be respectful to those which he calls blind?

As I wrestled with my own cognitive dissonances, I stumbled upon Samir Selmanovic and his book. Suddenly, I had an example of a Christian minister with a faith that actually honored the beliefs and traditions of other religions. Samir approaches those of a different faith with the curiosity and respect of a foreign exchange student, eager to learn from his surroundings.

I also found encouragement through the Interfaith Amigos, a trio of clergymen from the three Abrahamic faiths. Again, instead of seeking to convert each other, they seek conversations that allow them to learn from each other. How they make this all work, where others have found enmity, I sometimes wonder.

Most recently, I have discovered the discussions fostered by Chris Stedman. Chris is the Interfaith and Community Service Fellow for the Humanist Chaplaincy at Harvard University. Even as a humanist, he believes that there should be a place at the Interfaith table for those who do not believe in a god. He’s got some great ideas about how this can all work, and I’ll be writing more about him soon. But for now, just trust me that he is a really bright guy who doesn’t give you that icky, repulsive feeling that many atheists can do when they talk about religion.

That’s really where I’ve gotten stuck in my faith journey. I don’t really want to leave one box for another, but I often find myself suffocating in the vacuum of nothingness that I’m floating in right now.

Being in a box of religion may be limiting and claustrophobic at times, but at least there is some firm footing to rest on when weary.

I’ve almost forgot to mention the good people that often make up a faith community. I attended a bar mitzvah for the first time last week, and found myself encouraged and envious of the support offered to this boy and his family in his transition to manhood.

And finally let me return back to Ramadan. While I don’t want to embrace all of the beliefs, rituals, and dogma of Islam, I very much value and appreciate the structure of the Ramadan fast.

There is a beginning… and an end.

The sun comes up… and the sun goes down.

I focus my mind during the day… then I sit in thanksgiving for my food and water at night.

As far as boxes go, it’s been one that I have been happy to step into for the first time this year. Instead of continuing to float in a sea of not-knowing (agnosticism), will I be able to find peace of mind and community support in the Interfaith world.? Is this the box that contains the whole of the elephant? Or just another body part for me to grasp for in my own blindness?

Regardless, I’m proud to have celebrated Ramadan with my Muslim brothers and sisters this year. Will I be back for more next year in the blazing summer? I would say that it is pretty likely. Would anyone like to join me?

 

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  • anon

    hello Zac, been a while……thankyou  for your thoughtful reflections on the fasting experience.  Our experiences are unique to us and when we share them, it adds depth and color to all our lives. It is the same with all the wisdom teachings of the world, they add insight and perspective to our own traditions when shared. As the Quran says…if God had wanted us all to think and act the same…..he would have made us so….instead he gave us diversity.

    outside the box—Personally, I think that is what most wisdom teachers, such as Lao Tzu, Buddha, Jesus Christ(pbuh), Prophet Muhammed(pbuh) etc tried to do….take the human experience “outside the box” to revitalize it from the spiritual stagnation that was happening in their times.

    Grand narrative—whatever the name of ones faith, EGO does tend to distort the wisdom. It hapens in all the best traditions. no matter how much we try to avoid it, as human beings, we are all succeptible to the “we are better than them” attitude. The thing to remember is that wisdom will be veiled to us unless we approach it with an attitude of humility.

    Christianity—As a Muslim, it would be impossible for me to not have respect for the teachings and wisdom of Jesus Christ (peace be upon him). Yet, it  seems to me that these teachings have become lost in the often convoluted and unfathomable doctrines of  the various Christianities…. or perhaps it is simply my own intellectual inadequacy….? Nevertheless, Christianity is a bit unique in its premise of “original sin” (everyone is born a sinner) and related assumptions—sin to be paid by sacrificse(crucifixion) and belief in this leads to (guarenteed)salvation.(heaven/paradise)…..or something close to it….this obsession with (guaranteed) salvation seems to be a particularly “Christian” phenomenon.  As a Muslim, I am not a “born sinner”, but I am also not guarenteed Paradise on the basis of belief alone—since faith/belief must be translated into intentions and actions. So my understanding of religion is that it is a “guide to life”—and a Jew, Buddhist, Daoist…etc are likely to say the same.

    Atheist—I am slightly biased in favor of Atheists myself—because the ones I have chatted with have been spiritual seekers with a lively curiosity and a great sense of humor…which are essential if one is to explore life and wisdom……..otherwise one is seriously dull and ends up with ones intellect in sleep mode!

    vacuum of nothingness—interesting phrase. very Eastern!! some might say you have advanced in the ladder of spirituality since one has to traverse from “worldiness” to “nothingness” before encountering “spirituality”

  • http://twitter.com/nuruladeq Fatimah Zahirah

    hisashiburi~! 
    hi zac :) miss those days in ramadhan waiting 4 ur entry..n here i am!
    i like those phrases u use in ur entries..
    good luck on ur journey 
    may u find the greatest box of all
    im not sure what u r finding, 
    but for me,
    the more i try to become close to GOD,
    He’ll come much much more closer..
    so maybe u can ask God to guide u, finding the best way of life..
    i’ve found mine, ISLAM is my way of life :)
    all the best & never give up, k

  • Anonymous

    Anon – Good to hear from you again!

    I like your thoughts on wisdom teachers continually thinking “outside the box” throughout their histories. This is possibly why Rob Bell has had such an impact in American Christianity over the past decade. Do you ever feel that 21st century Islam has become too boxed in?

    My personal attempt to overcome the “us vs. them” tendencies is to categorize myself as “human” and work towards the inclusiveness that such a position requires. It’s not perfect at all, but it’s a framework that I find helpful.

    It’s probably as difficult to understand a version of Christianity from the outside as it is to understand a version of Islam from the outside. 

    If one believes that Islam is a religion of violent jihad (which many unfortunately do), then they will look to passages from the sacred texts to support this.

    If one believes that Christianity is a religion of prosperity and blessings from God for those He has chosen to bless (which many unfortunately do), then they will look to passages from the sacred texts to support this as well.

    That’s really what led me down this path of rejecting entire faith systems. As you said: “our experiences are unique to us”. It doesn’t seem that there is ever any official version of God’s plans and actions. We all just choose what makes the most sense to us, and hope that it is the “truth”.

    As far as the spiritual ladder goes, I’m not sure where I would be slotted on that. I’ve never been very worldly, but I’d say I’m closer to that now than at any other point in my life. I had some form of spirituality earlier in life, but now it feels closer to nothingness.

  • Anonymous

    Thanks for your kind words about my writing. I’m trying to be honest, and I’m glad that it resonates with you.

    I did have a time where I felt I was very close to God, but it ended up hurting a number of people and leaving me more lost than when I started. Have you ever read “Don Quixote”? It’s about a guy who imagines evil and adventure all around him, and ends up fighting windmills and getting beat up a lot. But after a while, he actually starts to experience the fruits of what that kind of knight-warrior would receive, even though it was all in his mind. 

    For me, ignorance was truly blissful. 

    I’m truly glad that you have found peace with God through Islam. I will continue to support and stand by those who live for peace and show love to their neighbors. That way of life is truly blessed.

  • anon

    diversity and unity in Islam—One could say that from the beginning, Islam(religion) is a kind of ”box”—though a very large one. The Quran defines a “believer” in many ways, one of the terms it uses is “muttaqeen” (one who has Taqwa–God-awareness)–this puts many people of many different belief systems into the “box” of believer. There is only one Arabic Quran for all 1.5 billion Muslims for all of 1400 years—-no versions, editions, revisions etc, with the 5 pillars this does create a kind of unity not seen in Christianity. On the other hand, Islam brought reform to the socio-economic and geo-political system of the time (enlightenment in a time of uncivility) and reform usually means going “outside the box”(status quo). Which is why the experience of a Muslim living in Turkey would be different from the one in Saudi Arabia to that of one living in Indonesia—etc.    In my opinion, it is this spirit which makes a religion “alive” as opposed to stagnant. In that sense, I would say that Islam has been in a period of stagnation for a while. (I am not speaking of religion in terms of its rituals—but more as spiritual guidance based on ethico-moral principles)

    “If one believes that Islam is a religion of violent jihad (which many unfortunately do), then they will look to passages from the sacred texts to support this.”
    —-On the surface, there may seem nothing wrong with this statement—it seems to be a good explanation. But I have some doubts about it. First, I mentioned that the (Arabic) Quran is the exact same text. There are no versions where some Quran are more violent than others (we are not speaking of translations here). 2ndly, the Quran itself says it is a book to be read as a whole and passages must not be “cut up for profit”(to advance an agenda) and when looked at as a whole, then the Quran repeatedly warns defending soldiers not to transgress limits in their battles. 3rd, if the terrorists—such as those of 9/11 were non-Arabic speaking Muslims relying on translated understanding—that would be one thing—but many are Arabic speakers—-therefore to use Quranic justification for terrorist violence would actually be to deliberately go AGAINST the Quran—not to mention, falsify the message of the Quran as well. —so while I may not completely discount the statement—I think that it may be too simplified.
    While it may perhaps be easier for Christians to rely directly on their sacred texts for various justifications, it might work to remember that both Judaism and Islam are legalistic and complex traditions with a large body of work outside of their (primary) sacred texts.

    I agree with you that the best “religion” is whichever makes you the better human being—for some it may be Christianity—for others it may be something else—whatever works. The thing to remember is that the wisdom teachers who brought the message and guidance did so to uplift the human spirit to achive its great potential—we can honor our various traditions by striving to be the best of humanity.

     

  • Anonymous

    I’ve been trying to better understand this idea of taking the Quran as a whole and not cutting it up for profit. I’m not sure if that is really possible. Or at least, I’m not sure if a set of ideas can be viewed in that way. A philosophy isn’t just a single idea. It is an amalgam of many, and yet somehow, it can be viewed as a single school of thought as well.

    Recently, we have been following the story of the college football coach who allegedly molested and abused several boys that were a part of his charity for youth. While I’m sure that the charity often espoused it’s values of developing and supporting at-risk youth, this man also occasionally caused great harm to some of these kids. 

    How would it be best to describe this charity? By it’s intentions and the great majority of the positive results that it produced? Or by the tragic and despicable actions of one of it’s leaders? 

    I guess the Catholic church and its abuses by clergy would be a fair analogy to this situation as well.

    I’m not sure what point I have to make with this. I only think that it makes sense to look at individual elements as well as the whole of something. In this case, Islam.

  • Tpos

    If he’s the leader then it should be looked at negatively as he used his position of power and deceived and abused people with it. He may have done *some* good and those he did help will no doubt be grateful, but he himself isn’t someone to look at positively.

    However with the church and the abuse by the clergy, I don’t think it’s fair to thing wrongly about every clergyman because of a few.

    I don’t understand how this is linked to not cutting up the Qur’an :S or was this example just for judging all ‘versions’ of Islam and the actions of some Muslims?

  • Anonymous

    It’s kind of a confusing example, I confess. I’m not sure what I really mean here. I think that it is difficult to argue that something should only be viewed and examined as a whole, and not also looked at by the various pieces that make it up. 

    In my understanding, there are as Many “versions” of Islam as there are Muslims. Everyone approaches their faith from a slightly different perspective. That’s why we have terrorists who kill in the name of Allah and others who dedicate their lives to alleviating the suffering of the poor. 

    Perhaps one can find examples of both behaviors in the Quran, and that is my point. People can fixate and focus on particular aspects of any philosophy, religion, or set of ideas. This fixation is what characterizes one’s true faith, and not the broader philosophy that it is taken from.